Hi Lovelies

Hope everyone is fine?

I stopped writing because I had a great breakdown and I just lost interest to continue, Iā€™m beginning to recovery slowly.

Happy New Year to you all , may the decade bring us great achievements and happiness

HAPPY NEW YEAR

A PERFECT GIFT FROM PAIN

Here comes the evidence of deeds

My initial regret but aftermath

The thought of you scared me

I have regretted my deed and forgiven my self

But to you I hold no grudge

Help me with strength day after day

Whether you are identified with the pinks or the baby blues

My love will never have any boundary

But may I never pick his type among the masses

You’re my perfect reward

Though you’re an emblem of him

You have outdone his errors

The child of the human I hate

Be my refuge oh little one

And give me joy when you arrive

For you I wait with hope

For a brighter day.

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How is everyone one doing

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Penning My Thoughts

Unlike her, my bra straps won’t strangle me

But what I feel is the ache in my chest cavity

When I inhaled the air it felt different

And when I exhaled nothing moved then I realized

That the mind needs peace for the soul to be alive

Give me freedom

Give me freedom

Set my mind to liberty

And watch me return from exile

For here is the thoughts of an entrapped mind

Living in a body it can’t recognize.

You Can Make Me Forget

I am disgusted by your love šŸ’•

Your affections give my life no taste

Yet it feels like an addiction

You can make me forget

That I am a prisoner of passion

Each time you hurt me

Give me a memory and a scar

Those things won’t go away

No one can gainsay

An imbroglio idea

A horrible prisoner

Addicted to captivity

TAKEN OUT OF MY WOMB 1

Yes I agree, it is indisputable that good communication was needed in every relationship.

What of the gentleman who is not willing to talk to me when I want a conversation,or even probe for answers?. I was certain that my husband was cheating, but I didn’t know who it was, whether it was a coworker, or a church member, a business associate, I just couldn’t tell.

It was driving me insane because,he kept telling me he will leave me if after the year ends, and I’m unable to get pregnant.

I knew I was fit because my medical conditions and results said so.

The arguments to convince Greg to see the doctors didn’t yield much results. He just wouldn’t allow us attend family parties anymore because he always nagged about hurts and emotional break downs from seeing other kids.The blue and Pink napkins on the dining table reminded him of my barrenness and I had to take them off .

It’s 2:33am and I couldn’t get any sleep. I kept staring at his face . The bedside lamp was bright enough to see him in the darkness. Lord Jesus what can I do to help us out of this mess. Could it be that the problem was from my husband that’s why he is being reluctant or is he afraid of something?

Maybe I should leave a note by his breakfast and go home for some few days. I dare not tell his parents we’re having issues because they won’t believe me. Our pictures went up on his status always and we speak to them laughing like our teeth had gold platings. Cheesing so hard and leaning on each other during video calls to show affection. The worst happens when the call ends and we switch into the “not friends anymore zone”.

How weird that love could turn this sour, just because of babies.

Then it crossed my mind for the first time in 3 years .

The craziest thought

3 years down, eternity no more

I don’t want to do this anymore

I want a divorce.

If he is cheating on me , and I can prove it, I will be free to go. Secondly we can’t even have babies.

I had enough rest after my long thoughts, and couldn’t wake up early to have a chat before he left home.

Hello! Annet !.This is Lizzy , Mr Greg’s wife. Good morning.

Good morning madam

I took your contact from his phone book , is he in the office please?

Yes please , he got in a while ago but reported he was taking you to see your doctor .

He will go out soon, Is there anything you want me to tell…..him?

Hello Annet!

Annet!

Please don’t let him know I called you .I will talk to you this evening.

I waited patiently for my husband to return from work and I asked where he was when I came by his office during the early hours of the day?

His quick response made me sad ” Must you always irritate me when I am in a good mood?”

I smiled bitterly and left the room for him to sleep and rest. I read between the lines. I’m loosing the man who swore heaven to be with me. I knew something is wrong. But what if we can make it right?

Sneaking into the guest bedroom, I called Annet and poured out my heart to her unapologetically. I wanted to speak to someone ,else I will loose my brains. The miasma I was living in was too much for me. I told her to help me find a prove , but I didn’t tell her I needed a divorce. She promised to help anyway and I trusted her even if I shouldn’t have.

A lot more could go wrong in a month but I could wait anyway.

To be honest , it was depressing, his harsh treatments and verbal abuses made these last moments bitter for me. One cold night he didn’t return early and I was worried. I slept on the couch and didn’t hear him come in . But I felt a shadow fall on me. Then he touched my waist and asked me to get up and go to bed. I waited for him to take his bath and I didn’t know how in three months of not being intimate, we could get excited after locking lips. His lips tasted like that of a stranger but I gave in to his pleasure . We made out, yes don’t judge me.

Two weeks went by so fast and and I kept waiting for the last few days for Annet to help me.

I was walking up into my office when Annet called!

I was excited!. But my excitement suddenly ended,when I felt an excruciating pain in my stomach. I grabbed the door knob for support and couldn’t pick up Annet’s incoming call.

The call ended and I picked up my phone and dialed her number to listen to the greatest news.

Lovely musings great write up

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Colorful imagery.

Rain drops fell quietly on the roof

The smell from the soil was great

That smell in your throat like clay

I knelt down on the floor beside the stove

With the yam in my hands I began to peel

This is childhood to me

The memories of sunset

The paths of the warriors

The chants of the Warlords

Screaming in unison with birds on the way to the farm

Picking fruits on our way back home

What about choosing random numbers and starting the game

Full of excitement and anticipation

That the oncoming car, has your chosen number on the plate

Hurry up please my Parent’s will call out!

The clouds are gathering

We must go home before the rain starts

Your mental picture differs from mine

But somewhere in my head a part of mine paints colorfully this way.

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